had bein watchin "hai pai tian xin" tis few days..

haha.. ended up alot of memories came crashin to me agn..

i dunno y but somehow sometimes i reali miz tat someone alot..

sometimes i reali wish tat i can luv & protect her as her boifren..

do silly things tgt wif her..

watchin movies & stay out late wif her..

and c her funny face everytime she gets angry of me teasin her~

v. often.. i reali miz her very very much..

but no matter wat.. everythin isnt impt anymore..

she's happily attached to someone tat can gif her a happy future le..

and always still.. she's will haf my best wishes..

im reali glad she once stayed in my heart for so long..

smile.. life still haf to move on..

had bein playin bball for the past 2 days..

watched "tooth fairy" wif huat, captain, tien long & guo ming on sat nite at amk hub..

its reali a funny & gd movie to watch..

althru i almost fall aslp as im felt god damn tired after playin whole mornin of bball on sat..

but.. i watched it thru till the end k..

*all thx to my adorable captain fang siang wei de stupid laughter to prevent me from fallin aslp..

thx very much wor captain..

haha.. im felt so glad tat i haf all tis frens by my side..

they r my vitamin "H"appiness now..

y do i nid luv den??

i once oso like tis particular gal so so much..

but i nv admit my likes to her b4..

all i did is chat wif her via msn abt "her"..

and all along.. she nv tot tat she was tat "her" i liked..

till one day.. she found out & wrote a blog post juz for me..

erm.. kinda v. hurtin post..

althru she didn cos of tat matter den ends our frenship?!

tat particular min.. i reali felt like hatin her 4eva..

and tats isnt any common "i reali hate u" kind of hate!!

tats the hate i had juz bcos i couldnt haf her as my galfren tat time..

a very selfish version of hate tat onli luv could led to..

days passed.. i was still emo over her post..

den i came across her fren tag on her profile page..

" (her name) will not b bothered to tell u ur mistakes if she doesnt treat ya as her fren.. if not.. y will she b bothered den??! tinkin tat she always haf the america time & saliva to waste?? "

its was den i realised tat i was damn foolish..

tinkin tat she looked down on me..

when instead.. she rejected me cos of a v. fatal mistake i had tat time~

* to b a damn fcukin negative person.. and it will onli affect ppl tat cares abt u to b sad oso..

haha.. i became more positive & cheerful after tat..

muahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.. (damn freakin scary kind of laughter.. like captain's?!)

anw.. we 2 v. seldom keep in touch le nowadays..

i guess she's bz wif her life la..

as long as she is doin fine jiu hao..

as her fren.. she oso always haf my best wishes..

anw.. like y i say frens seems more impt to me than luv le..

she's the perfect example..

* someone more of a special fren to me den someone i once luv..

haha.. i guess im reali gettin more & more luv sick..

i simply isnt interested in any gals after the hu-so-eva brokeup wif me..

and it isnt totali juz bcos of hu-so-eva den i became like tis..

haiz.. oso dunno how to say la..

wateva la.. im glad she reali hate me like else i killed her parents lor!!

*and im always the reason y a relationship will go sideway can????!!!!

many young gals will go for gd lookin guys.. dump dem when they cant fulfil her needs..

den many "old" gals will go for rich guys.. look isnt impt by den.. money is everythin..

so sometimes i wonder.. when will i haf a galfren when im neither gd lookin nor rich den??!

when can i b able to find tat someone hu always willin to stay in my heart despite everythin??!

i isnt a complicated guy.. doesn't nid alot of requirements ma to b my gal..

but y muz i every r/s turn out like else its my fault to b ugly & poor??~!

i reali dunno..

i did my part..

i shower dem wif luv when we were tgt..

i sacrificed all my time, money, heartbeat juz bcos i fall in luv agn & agn & agn..

and den i fall agn & agn & agn..

i guess.. ugly poor guy will always b single..

b it a happy ugly poor guy??? or a emo ugly poor guy??

its up to tat particular ugly poor guy den..

haha.. which 1 was it me den??

hahaha.. seriously.. i dunno........

smile.. :)

nitez frens.. sweetdream~

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